public, private

I'm trying something I never thought I would - I joined a dating website. I have only been a member for a few days so my thoughts are still coming together. But initial impressions are:

1) I woke up at 4am in a panic thinking that a STRANGER could be looking at my profile. This is due to my reserved nature and, no doubt, to my experience with the woman who was (is?) convinced we were meant to love one another despite all evidence to the contrary. The idea of inviting more of that kind of attention is scary.

2) I don't like getting messages from people who clearly have not bothered to read my profile. Is it that hard to write "I like Stevie Wonder too" before "Hi. Drinks sometime? - F?" Come on! At that rate I could say I have no job and wear puppy fur coats and I'd probably make a match as long as my photo was attractive enough.

3) I get giddy and sweaty palms looking at all the potential dates and thinking one of them might be worth meeting and, of course, kissing. I imagine all the fun stuff of a new crush and that makes it worth staying around for a little while.